~~Little post I found in the draft section from about 10 months ago, figured it needed posting.~~~
Time seems to fly by some days. Other days it just drones on like a bad movie running on every TV channel. Looking back at some of my posts, I have enthusiasm for life and other times I loose it. At least my last post is not a year old yet.
This past year has had its ups and downs for me. I have loved and lost and loved and never attained. I have moved back to my home state and drudged through all the misery involved in moving. I finally got to get chickens and have a real garden in the ground instead of container gardening.
I fight with depression on a daily basis and get through it one day at a time. I always hope tomorrow will be better. I still battle with my body. After the weightloss surgery, I feel so much better, however the excess skin that will never shrink haunts me every day. I sometimes wish I never had the surgery, because when I was heavy, I wasn't so self conscious of my body. I am still hiding behind baggy T-shirts. I'm not fat, I'm not skinny, I just feel like a blob.
